Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Oh, AutoCAD...

...quit being so melodramatic!

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Isn't That Strange?

Isn't that strange how we can be going through all these inner struggles and transformations, yet keep waking up in the morning, going to work, choir rehearsal, Spanish class...?

You kind of expect everything to pause and wait for you to figure it all out, but that is just not the way the world works. Probably because we'll never figure EVERYTHING out.

Friday, November 23, 2007

Giving Thanks

I am thankful for a family who loves me no matter what,
and for friends who help me along the way.

I am thankful for the beauty of the earth
of the sky
and of the woodlands.

For the subway.
For elevators.
For modern medicine, for caring doctors.

For smooth rocks from the beach, and I’m thankful for snow flurries and little seeds that hide away until the first hint of spring’s warmth.
For children who laugh at the bus stop.

For music and shared words.

I’m grateful for the farmers always growing food for us to eat.
I am grateful for the strength of my mind, body, and emotions.
I am thankful for hope and the future, for the sad times as well as the sweet ones

I am thankful to learn.
I am thankful to grow.
I am thankful each moment as I discover this miracle of life.

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Christmas Cactus

My Christmas Cactus is budding. Do you know what this means? It means "Hallelujah, we've made it through another year!" And tonight I'm going home to Thanksgiving...

Thursday, November 15, 2007

"Surprise, surprise!"

...said the sock and the grey pair of underwear as they leaped out of the clean sheet Katie was trying to put on her bed. "Did we scare you???"

Saturday, November 10, 2007

Blown Away

A really talented live musician can just blow you away sometimes, huh?

You know no matter how much you devote you may never attain that level of precision and grace. Yet something magical resonates within your spirit and you think, what a miracle, what a gift, to be a human, to be a part of a species that can conceive of and combine notes and intensities and emotion into something so rich and delicate as... music.

Wednesday, November 7, 2007


My coworker and her husband adopted a dog from the shelter a bit less than a year ago. The little dog had a very troubled past and came to them with a host of issues from anxiety to aggression. They have shown him only love, patience, and understanding these few months, and, along with a constant environment, he has started to learn to trust humans again. At the end of last week, however, she came into work in tears. The dog had bitten her on the arm and the leg. She was shaken up, but fine physically, although his teeth did break through the skin. It was more of an internal blow... after she had invested so much time and so much of her physical and emotional efforts, this little creature whom she loved so dearly had reverted back to his old ways and literally bit the hand that fed him.

Recently I have seen two movies: Darjeeling Limited and Crash. Two films I would recommend to most people. The first is about three white American brothers who take a train through India at the request of the eldest in order to grow closer to each other and receive spiritual insight. The second winds the racially charged stories of several citizens of Los Angeles into an intricate knot of misunderstandings and even violence. The first is artistic and dry and the second is tense and raw...

There are a lot of stories I have heard where the main character undergoes a transformation: becoming a kinder, more understanding, or more loving person. It may occur slowly or almost instantaneously, but the change always seems to occur steadily, to be permanent transformation.

My reaction at the end of both of the movies was "What??? ...ohhhhhh." While the characters in each did change and grow, their changes were not a linear process. It threw me at first, but then it resonated. Maybe it reflects this current point in my life that I am picking up on such a theme and connecting the two films, or maybe it reflects a more realistic, less idealist view towards change in the world in general. Even as we have small changes of heart as individuals or groups, we still may return to our old ways, yet with a slightly deeper understanding and a hint of promise that the next time around we might do a little bit better. Maybe that is what makes change beautiful. It is not perfect, yet we continue.

On Monday, my coworker came back into work smiling. The whole weekend, the dog acted as though nothing had ever happened. In fact, she said "he has been so much more affectionate than usual."

That is hope.