Sunday, June 29, 2008

Today II

"Sorry" said the plants as they push their way between the bricks, burst through glass panes, and wrap around any and every vertical thing. "You give us sunlight and a little rain and we cannot HELP growing..."

I stand with my forehead pressed against the greenhouse window, hands cupped on either side to shield the sun's bright glare and try to see within. Following vein patterns, the white paint peels off in clumps. There it is: time. Sleeping rows of irrigation tubes dangle from overhead pipes. The panes of glass on the roof are shattered, some missing entirely, and leafy tree tops spring from the gut of this lonely structure.

And as I peer into the past, present, and future I feel a giant brush rinsing swirling colored paint into my soul.

Today I

This is how I feel right now: blah blah blah...

Maybe I will go visit this old abandoned greenhouse next to the train tracks. Maybe I will see how the Mother of us all is reclaiming it with her green, green grasp.

The original greenhouse was a human imitation - pale - of its current destiny.

Isn't that so crazy to think of?

Thursday, June 26, 2008


almost left for work without underwear...

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Deeper Silver

Two days before my twenty-third birthday
He left
tired months with silence and suddenly away
Left me with six grey hairs and terror at ever loving again.

Twenty-four-and-a-half years old
In the bathroom at work I see it has sprung back glistening alongside brown curls
snatch a single strand from my temple
with a tiny ping and successive echoes
that he could walk down those stairs
how I now miss that youth
how I miss that optimism and trust
which were snatched from hoping fingers.

between which the hair begins to smolder, transformed, burning I almost drop it
Purified by molten life.
I see years, sorrows of brothers and sisters
Pain transfigured into understanding
and finally awareness
Yes the roots of life reach deeper now than they did before.

Damn you, hair. Deeper.

Sunday, June 15, 2008


Nineteen pods harvested today!

I probably ought to bring the soil in tomorrow to check it for lead.

Thursday, June 5, 2008