Thursday, August 30, 2012

Things I Love from Mormonism

  • Emphasis on hard work, self-sufficiency, helping those around you.
  • That we all have the seeds of godliness within each human being.
  • Honoring those who have gone before us.
  • Some really nice symbolism.
  • The idea of atonement, that there is a force in the universe for healing and growth for when you fuck it all up or feel like you just can't get where you want to go or be the person you want to be, that force for good there inside of you, waiting for the moment when you actually start letting go of all your old baggage and moving on to a healthy and happy you. 
  • That it was started by a little guy who asked big questions.
  • Related to the above, that sometimes you find fear/darkness/feeling of abandonment before you get knowledge.
  • Though it may not seem that way now, deviating from an expected path is at the very core of the religion; the religion's foundation is a giant metaphorical middle finger to "the establishment." If you find something that is wrong or that just makes your soul cry out for answers, maybe it's your responsibility to find the way that is in accordance to the principles of justice and mercy and benevolence and truth as you understand them. Maybe the system is broken. Maybe you were misguided or misunderstanding or headstrong or wanted to have everyone married together in a giant heavenly love-fest and it seemed like a good idea at the time. Maybe you love communes. Maybe you find out after trying it out that some things work better in theory than in practice. Maybe you love nature. Maybe you love someone the same sex as you. Maybe you think people shouldn't be put into little boxes because of their sex or gender. Maybe you are mystical and spiritual and find all the obedience stuff super mundane. Maybe you end up realizing that mundane can transcend too. Maybe this bullet is getting too long compared to all the other bullets. Maybe all of the above. But most importantly, maybe you won't know until you try it, until you say Dear God I don't think this is right, I need to embark on my own. I know of at least one founder of Mormonism who did so. 

Surely there are more, but those are off the top of my mind. Sorry Mormonism that we couldn't make it work, but we had some good times, a lot of which have made me who I am today.

3 comments:

Katya said...

"Maybe you were misguided or misunderstanding or headstrong or wanted to have everyone married together in a giant heavenly love-fest and it seemed like a good idea at the time."

I think this may be my favorite description of polygamy ever.

Newt said...

Yeah I kind of think of truth (or "revelation" if you would like) as trial and error process a lot more now. Kind of refine it as you go.

Colin Campbell said...

Awesome post. I can't see myself ever going back to the church at this point, but I don't regret my time in it for these kinds of reasons.